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Back in the U.S.S.R.

The political landscape in this country is a reproduction of democracy. It is not real, it is imagined. We have all noted in previous elections that it came down to a choice between the “lesser of two evils”.  We tolerate this? Why should we be forced to choose any evil?

Because we too are evil, or blind, or apathetic.

I personally have not voted in a Presidential election. The first time I was even inspired to vote was in the Republican primaries, and that was for Ron Paul. I watched the blogosphere and Internet press explode with the “Ron Paul Revolution”. Some co-workers and friends were caught up in the hype. I admit that sometimes I found myself getting really excited. (I also confess that I later secretly mocked those who acted similarly towards Obama) The reason why I see red flags when a large group becomes so blindly devoted is because I know this leaves us vulnerable to subtle and even direct manipulation.

The secret board of shadowy figures that rule this planet have been pulling the strings of the public mind for so long that they no longer hide it from us. The agendas of the global elite are coming to fruition (i.e., the rise of the global bank and economy, the socializing of the United States).  How do I know they are not hiding it from us? Because we know about it, and not just that, some of us think it is a good idea! I have friends I love that are devout socialists. Our bloated federal government has been promising to take care of us for so long that we forgot that this country was founded by people who took care of themselves. These patriots wanted to be freed from a tyrannical government, and wanted to live life as they saw fit.

What do we want in life? How do we want to live? Most of us are so distracted by the whirlwind of life that surrounds us that we all too often forget how to be happy. We are distracted by dead end jobs. we are distracted by merchandise, and by reality TV, and by cheese stuffed crust pizza. An early roman poet who probably felt as I do now, said “Panem et Circensus”, which translates to “bread and circuses”. Caesar had learned the equation to keep his empire at war and keep the masses subdued. Keep them entertained, and keep them waiting for handouts.

Does this sound familiar at all?

I Think I’ll go to Boston

I think I’ll start a new life
I think I’ll start it over where no one knows my name
I’ll get out of California, I’m tired of the weather
I think I’ll get a lover and fly em out to Spain
I think I’ll go to Boston
I think that I’m just tired
I think I need a new town to leave this all behind
I think I need a sunrise, I’m tired of the sunset

Life has a funny way of always turning out differently than expected.  I thought my life was nearing it’s end.  I was all but buried.  My health was failing.  My heart was broken.  I had given up.  I did not care.  I was ready for release.  God had different plans for me.

I have lost 217 pounds since my surgery on May 1st 2008.  I could tell you the many opportunities, dear reader, that have become available to me now that I have lost the weight.  I could tell you how life is no longer the dismal, and depressing.  I COULD tell you these things, but it wouldn’t be completely honest.

I cannot trust people.  I have allowed too many people to walk over me in the last 10 years.  Pre-Surgery Richie didn’t care, because well, why would he.  He had no life of his own.   He wouldn’t hesitate to give his last dime to his friend to help them out, even if it meant he would have to suffer a week till payday.  He would be emotionally available to the women he had fallen for, only to listen to them talk about the boy they are dating and how terrible they are.

Post-Surgery Richie, sadly, still is a pushover.  I have recently been told by a few people how predictable I am.  Good ‘ole predictable Richie.  After tonight, no more.  I cannot be that guy anymore.  I really need to re-discover what I want my life to consist of.  I have been so busy making sure the people around me are doing ok that I have completely forgotten how important it is to know how I am doing, and what I want in life.

I do not trust anyone anymore.  Everyone is suspect.  I am closed off.  This is me retreating.  Sorry, but this is the way it has to be.

The World Has Turned and Left Me Here

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared.
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face.

People come and go in your life. The types of people who make a tremendous impact on your life are usually the ones that don’t stick around too long. Maybe they disappeared because of something you shouldn’t have done or said; maybe that’s the impact – Learning a hard lesson. Continue reading ‘The World Has Turned and Left Me Here’