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Heart Songs

These are my heart songs They never feel wrong And when I wake for goodness sake These are the songs I keep singing My strongest emotions are tied to music. Those whom I call friends already know this. Those that actually read this wandering, less than idealistic record of uninspired thoughts, may have also stumbled […]

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Tell Her This

Tell her what was wrong I sometimes think to much But say nothing at all Sometimes it is not easy to say what needs to be said. Most of the time if the words are hard to find, it is probably for the best. This prevents me from needing to remove my foot from my […]

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Enjoy the Silence

Vows are spoken to be broken. Feelings are intense. Words are trivial. Pleasures remain. So does the pain. The move to the new house is near completion.  Most of my life’s belongings are unpacked and placed at their arbitrarily decided new location, where they will remain until I decide to move again and pack them […]

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Crash Into Me

Having a crush on someone feels exactly like it felt as a kid the night before a trip to Disneyland.  Excitement. Anticipation. Overload. I can’t believe that after all of these years, I still get butterflies in my stomach when trying to talk to someone that I think I may “like”.  I mean, I communicate […]

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Where Would I Be?

First, I want to thank everyone for your prayers and good thoughts during my surgery and recovery.  It was not an easy experience for me.  My time in the hospital following the surgery was especially rough.  My adorable mom came and took care of me during the week following being released from the hospital.  I […]

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Love Me Dead

On Thursday I undergo surgery. It is a fairly common operation, however I am at high risk. I am nervous about having this procedure done, despite the fact that it will change my life forever in a positive way. Even though it is possible that gastric bypass surgery can in some cases lead to death, […]

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The World Has Turned and Left Me Here

The world has turned and left me here Just where I was before you appeared. And in your place an empty space Has filled the void behind my face. People come and go in your life. The types of people who make a tremendous impact on your life are usually the ones that don’t stick […]

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Another Lonely Day

Yes indeed I’m alone again And here comes emptiness crashing in Its either love or hate I cant find in between Cause Ive been with witches And I have been with a queen It wouldn’t have worked out any way So now its just another lonely day Further along we just may But for now […]

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La Mar (The Ocean)

This day is getting older, In fading light it’s beautiful. This wind is blowing colder, And too soon I’ll feel it’s pull. Still, I took all my chances, Earned myself an even score. Try to learn my lessons well. And I don’t have the answers, For those questions anymore. Only love can be both heaven […]

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So Much to Say

I find sometimes it’s easy to be myself. Sometimes I find its better to be somebody else. I say my hell is the closet, I’m stuck inside. Can’t see the light. And my heaven is a nice house in the sky; got central heating and I’m alright. Can’t see the light. Keep it locked up […]